The story of Michelle Tea’s entrance into San Francisco dyke royalty has become a story about each and every one of us in the highly, highly anticipated new film coming out THIS WEEK based on the memoir Valencia. With 19 directors, 19 Michelles, and 19 versions of the truth, Valencia is a mirror-house of queer desire and growing up, taken from Michelle’s personal experience and applied to every single person who has ever felt this way – it’s the story after the coming out story.
|In this introductory chapter, you see that while Michelle is a naive creature in San Francisco, she can see right through the falsities and frailties of this exclusive queer community – perhaps more than they can see themselves. – Courtney Trouble, interviewed by Michelle tea. (Read More at RADAR)|
I read Valencia when I was 17 years old. Five years later, I found myself crossing the same bridge into the same city, doing quite a bit of the same things, and feeling a lot of the same feelings. And any queer girl who ends up in this city could probably say the same. This wasn’t the 90’s referenced in Tea’s famous book, this was much later. Valencia isn’t a time, it’s a place, it’s now and then and always and forever. And that’s exactly what the film feels like.
I feel incredibly honored to be a director and a star of this to-be-legendary film. I wrote, directed, and performed in Chapter One of Valencia The Movie – a chapter famous for it’s explicit fisting, and processing of the fisting, of Petra (played by me) by Michelle (played by cis andro-femme male porn star Quinn Cassidy)
It was a great experience, working for the first time on a narrative piece for a full-length film that wouldn’t be Rated X. But I was an establish queer pornographer in charge of a very powerful sex scene, so I kept it real. In the book, this sex changes Michelle’s life, it sets the course for her path of sexual deviance discovery, and helps her come to the realization that she didn’t want to be used, or become the one using someone else. For the first time I found myself really focusing on WHY the sex was happening, and HOW they felt while it was happening. I turn down the sound during the climax of the piece and let Michelle’s own words from the book replace the sounds of the sex – a trick I have utilized many times since then to pull an audience away from the immediate reactions of watching pornography to think about what’s happening on another level (see my new short film fuck/talk, playing at the Valencia Filmmakers Film Fest on June 25th in SF)
|“This girl with the crazy cunt that sucked my fist inside with a slow slurp. My whole hand. I saw my elbow, then my forearm, then her cunt. I thought about my hand that had disappeared into her hole and I thought about the quantum physics theory that once something leaves our view we cannot prove what has happened to it, or if it even exists.” – Michelle Tea contemplates fisting in Valencia|
My chapter features music by BIKINI KILL, SUBTONIX, AND NADIA BUYSE.
VALENCIA had it’s WORLD PREMIERE at the Castro Theater on June 21st as part of the legendary Frameline Film Festival. It’s sold out. So is the one in Oakland. HOWEVER, they just added a third screening on the afternoon of June 24th at the Castro – get those tickets NOW.
The VALENCIA After-Party with THE NEED (one of my favorite bands of all all all all time) is on June 22nd at the Elbo Room in SF, and my alter-ego DJ NSFW will be spinning riot grrrl 7 inches and female-fronted punk records before or after the show. You can buy tickets here until they sell out, which I imagine will be shortly.