I am a porn star.  I fuck on film for a living. I, Courtney Trouble, have an Amazon Wishlist.

A lot of porn stars and other kinds of “professionally hot” people have these Wishlists and receive gifts from fans. I feel strange about it. I guess it’s because I’m not your average porn star. I identify as a queer femme punk, a politically active, plus size, sex-positive nerd.

I’ve brought back my Wishlist after years of letting it gather dust because as I have been steadily increasing the amount of porn performances I do (FIVE this month alone!) I am realizing that I can crowd-source some of the outfits I wear, toys I use, et cetera. I’ve also added some photography and technology items to my wishlist because I am constantly trying to improve my craft as a photographer and film-maker.

You could argue that I could buy these things for myself - but the truth of the matter is, is that I spend virtually every dollar I make on making porn. As a producer who shoots twice a month, funds other pornographer’s projects, donates my time to pornographic art projects, and manages multiple websites – there’s not a whole lot of cash left to buy things like porn-ready high heels, lingerie, or even the more technical work-related stuff like lenses, film, and the almighty iPod (for testing my mobile videos!)

It’s also been a lot of fun seeing what my fans want me to do, with my look, my clothes, my shoots. Getting me something off my list invites me to play creatively with something new, something that I know at least one fan will appreciate!

So, I invite you to play Sugar Daddy or Sugar Mommy with me. I’ll make it fun by doing a photoshoot with whatever it is you choose of the list – no matter how crazy it sounds – and post it online for you and everybody else to see.

The photos in this shoot include things fans have bought me from my wishlist. The totally gorgeous pink dress that MH got me is probably my favorite dress of all time! The book, Girls To The Front, is from CF. I’ve been looking forward to reading this book all year! Thank you! And, the lens that the photos were taken on , A Canon 18-55, came from a sweet and anonomous fan who must really want me to take more photos… Because that’s exactly what I’ve been doing!

(photos taken are self-portraits!)

For quick info, forward yourself to the event page or check out the Facebook Event Page for the 4th installment of my pride party, Queerly Beloved! (or just buy the tickets for $7 already!)

Queerly Beloved started 4 years ago when throwing a party in my backyard with a few performances, some great DJs, and some Jell-O shots seemed like way more fun then going to any of the mainstream “Pride” parties in San Francisco.

Something about the normal “GLBT” community has always made me feel alienated – or worse, bored. Bud Light Beer Gardens and Work Out Protein Powder and Lesbian Cruise Ships don’t really fit my sexual orientation, my place in the world, or my relationship to being an out and proud queer person. I don’t like being pandered to as a statistic, nor do I see corporate sponsorships as empowering – if anything I find them exploitive and oppressive.

I have always loved Pride Week in San Francisco though, don’t get me wrong. The long sunburnt days at Delores Park, being a supportive friend or lover at the Trans March, playing out my inner dykeyness at the Dyke March – but as someone who has never used the terms “trans” or “dyke” – there still wasn’t anything that celebrated my queerness – genderqueer, nongendered, punky subversive, pansexual, kinkyfreaky, cock-loving, pussy-eating queer goodness.

So in pure Courtney form, I decided to Do It Myself. And that’s why Queerly Beloved exists – as a haven for the hedonistic, label-scratching, subversive queers who can’t be defined by the over-produced, mass produced Pride(tm) events. All genders are welcome – and I’m sure that even people who do fit in to the GLBT will have fun at the party, if not a total mind-blowing fun-drenched blast!

And fuck, has it been fun. In years past, the performances, DJs, and crowd have been incredible. I’ve had people come up to me and say “THIS IS MY FAVORITE PARTY OF THE YEAR” – and this year, our host El Rio has finally proclaimed it “El Rio’s Official Pride Party,” which can only mean great things for this event in the years to come.

THIS YEAR is going to be SO FUCKING GOOD. I have asked my lifelong “BFF” (sounds silly saying that at my age!) Jenna Riot to help me host the party and be our headlining celebrity DJ for the event. She’s AMAZING! Also, Feminist Porn Award HeartThrob winner James Darling will be gracing the stage to do a sexy solo boylesque stripper set (or maybe he will surprise us with something totally different!) and the Queen of Indie Burlesque, the young up and coming star Dorian Faust will also be dancing for us.

The big news? I will be making my way back up on stage for the first time in San Francisco, and the first time in 7 years. I wont get into the details of my act, but be prepared for a messy, slippery, sexy triumphant return to live performance. I am SO ready, my friends!

Pride is all about the sun shining down on us, and every year, my back-patio daytime dance party seems to be bigger, better, and brighter… I look forward to it all year long!

Check out the event page for a full list of performers, DJs, and other goodies (like the photobooth, free food, and door prizes) for the party, or go head over to Facebook to RSVP – or straight to Brown Paper Tickets to buy your tickets! ($7 online, $10 at the door!) and there WILL BE SUPER TOPSECRET GUESTS this year, so stay tuned…

I will be in attendence for the Public.Provocative.Porn: The Year’s Best in Feminist Film screening on April 19th, and the 7th Annual Good For Her Feminist P*rn Awards Gala on the 20th. You can watch me perform LIVE with dreamboat Rozen DeBowe at the SWITCH FPA Edition play party, or come to my workshop at Come As You Are (another awesome sex toy store, Toronto’s full of them!) on Sunday April 22nd at 7pm entitled Fat Sex!

The Feminist Porn Awards are a screening and awards gala that happen every year in April, where awards like “Most Diverse Cast,” “Heart Throb of the Year,” and “Best Trans Film” are presented to film-makers and stars that have feminist sensibilities in the adult industry, like Tristan Taormino, Nica Noelle, Shine Louise Houston, and me. (You know, the good ones! *wink*)

From the FPA website:

What makes a movie a Feminist Porn Award winner?

In order to be considered for a Feminist Porn Award, the movie/short/website/whatever!  must meet at least one of the following criteria:

1)  A woman had a hand in the production, writing, direction, etc. of the work.

2)  It depicts genuine female pleasure

3)  It expands the boundaries of sexual representation on film and challenges stereotypes that are often found in mainstream porn.

And of course, it has to be hot!

Overall, Feminist Porn Award winners tend to show movies that consider a female viewer from start to finish.  This means that you are more likely to see active desire and consent, real orgasms, and women taking control of their own fantasies (even when that fantasy is to hand over that control).

My personal beliefs are that identifying as a feminist is not a pre-requisite for making great porn that all kinds of people can enjoy, but it certainly does help. I myself identify as a “feminist of my own invention.”

A question that’s been posed to me many, many times:

I have recently decided that I am a feminist of my own invention. My father, a single parent, unknowingly taught me to live in the world free of self-imposed gender roles while figuring out how to survive as a broke-but-resourceful family of two. I went to college and have two degrees, however – I spent none of that academic time on feminist literature, theory, or critique. I spent it taking photographs and immersing myself in the queer performance art and music thriving in my home town Olympia Washington. I am steeped in Riot Grrrl culture and see my feminist involvement in porn much like Kathleen Hanna confronted the punk music scene in the 1990’s. I have become a force to be reckoned with inside of a boy’s club. I’ve created my own scene, my own audience, my own talent pool to collaborate with – instead of allowing myself to be marginalized and desensitized by the mainstream male gaze. At the same time, I feel like a lot of feminist thought is severely problematic. I believe trans women are women and should be included, without question, in feminist ideology and issues. I am strongly against woman-only spaces that exclude trans women. I believe that sex workers, including porn performers and film-makers, live valid lives, have valid jobs, and should be equally protected under the same laws that protect everyone else from rape, murder, theft, and abuse.  Also I believe that men can be feminist and should be part of the task forces that confront issues like rape, birth control, and oppression. My anti-oppression obsessions leave me on the outside of feminism, even and especially outside of today’s radical feminism, and that is why I say, I am a feminist of my own invention. A humanist. A punk. A queer.    My porn reflects my beliefs, simply put.

My nominations for the 2012 Feminist Porn Awards include:

Fuckstyles: My brand new DVD released on TROUBLEfilms, comprised of some fabulous scenes from the first year of QueerPorn.TV, my now infamous new porn site co-created with Tina Horn. This DVD has a director’s commentary where you can hear Tina and I drooling all over everybody, and talking about the politics behind the porn. But aside from all the cool DVD extras (making that physical purchase more than worth it!)  the sex itself is revolutionary, or so says the omnipotent Fleshbot!

Live Sex Show: TROUBLEfilm’s debut DVD release, starring Jiz Lee and Nina Hartley in one of the most importance feminist porn scenes ever if I do say so myself! If you haven’t seen it yet, you’ll want to get the DVD and watch it – but good luck finding it, because due to the awesome fisting in this scene, the whole movie has been rejected from almost every mainstream porn store and VOD site I’ve sent it to! Of course, Good For Her has it.

NoFauxxx.Com: My darling baby turned ten this year, and that’s why I have big hopes for this site winning. It totally deserves a moment in the spotlight. I mean, it’s where queer porn was born, or at least where the term queer porn was coined. This site has gone under a lot of renovations lately (it’s hard cleaning up after a ten year old!) and is now in tip top form after it’s lovely makeover. If you haven’t seen it in a while, well – you know what you’re doing tonight!

QueerPorn.TV: Nominated again after last year’s big win as one of the FPA’s Best Websites. Wouldn’t it be cool if it just won every year? There’s some amazing new scenes coming to the site this year… I’m pretty excited about it!

QueerPornTube.Com: The unsung hero of the queer porn movement, Queer Porn Tube is THEE place to post and watch amateur queer porn, submitted by queer hotties from all over the globe. This site is totally free, totally awesome, and about to take off. Have you uploaded your private sex tapes yet? Do it now!! Even some porn stars like James Darling and myself have channels and update dirty personal DIY videos!

Anchor Anatomic: A short film starring Quinn Valentine (aka Quinn Cassidy) and Robert WOuld in a cisgendered homosexual love scene between strangers. Shot in black and white, this scene can only be found on the Fucking Different XXX DVD and at film festivals including Oakland’s BRIEFS film festival 2012 and Berlin’s Porn Film Festival 2011. It poses the question – how can gay porn be feminist, and why isn’t there more of it? This scene is nominated twice!

Fucking Different XXX: I am super excited to be a part of this incredible film, put together by the folks at the Berlin Porn Film Festival and featuring some of queer porn’s absolute best directors from around the world. I can’t tell you how giddy and childish I became when I got to stand next to Bruce La Bruce and receive a standing ovation for being in this film with my short, Anchor Anatomic. Pretty giddy.

Padded Submissives: I star in this film as a strap-on weilding stunt cock in my first performance with the lovely BBW icon Kelly Shibari. I loved slapping her around and forcing her pretty face down on my silicone dick before laying her on her back and pounding her to orgasm!!! And it looks like everybody else like the scene, too – even XCritic said: “Definitely one of the hottest BBW lesbian sex scenes I’ve ever seen.”

Crash Pad Series, Good Dyke Porn: I have fucked some seriously hot people on these websites, and also, I totally adore the directors. Shine and Bryn are fucking awesome! I love being able to jump out from behind the camera and go work for other rad, queer directors. I’m in good company with these two.

I am excited to be staying with some of my favorite people, mainly Drew Deveaux, Jiz Lee, and Lux Alpatrum, partying with local babes Maxwell Lander and Carrie Aslan, running into friends from out of town like Tobi Hill-Meyer and Tristan Taormino, and of course kicking it with all of the incredible performers I’ve gotten the chance to work with over the course of the past year, like Arabelle Raphael, Rozen DeBowe, James Darling, Tina Horn, and Quinn Cassidy – all in attendance!

A discussion-oriented sex-positive salon for folks of all sizes, Fat Sex is a safe space for fat people and our friends to talk about our bodies and desires – including topics like body positivity, self esteem politics, fetishization/ hyper-sexualization, erotica/performance, and tips, tricks, and techniques for having fat sex! This interactive workshop will not be an academic lecture, but an inclusive brainstorm session and interactive discussion about fat sex, body politics, and the ‘body posi revolution!’

People of all genders and orientations welcome.

When: Sunday, April 22, 2012 7-8:30PM
Where: Come As You Are
Cost:$25/person (Sliding Scale Available)

Buy tickets online!

Courtney Trouble has been a porn star, peepshow stripper, burlesque dancer, and fashion model – all while hovering over a solid and ridiculously sexy size 14. A queer femme, Trouble has radicalised their body as something to be seen and shared in order to bring awareness to fat sexuality. Courtney wrote zines on fatness and hosted an online community called Fat Girl Break Down as a teen before stumbling into size-positive erotic photography in 2002. The recently participated in Marilyn Wann’s “I Stand” Health at Every Size campaign, and posed nude on a busy street corner for the cover of the SF Bay Guardian. Trouble identifies as street smart, not book smart – and prioritises the importance of personal experience, crowd-sourced information, and the interactivities of experience and emotion. Courtney owns the award-winning porn sites NoFauxxx.Com and QueerPorn.TV, and has directed 13 adult films featuring performers of all sizes.

San Francisco, CA – Ethical porn production and distribution company TROUBLEfilms is pleased to carry the work of director Tobi Hill-Meyer. This exciting collaboration will open new avenues for both companies, and make Hill-Meyer’s films more readily available to her quickly growing fan base.

Tobi Hill-Meyer’s films Doing It Ourselves: The Trans Women Porn Project and The Genderfellator, produced by Handbasket Productions, are available for wholesale through TROUBLEfilms immediately, adding to Courtney Trouble’s films Live Sex Show and Fuckstyles. Contact info@troublefilms.com to place your order now.

Trouble has been a major player in showcasing queer identity and transsexual performers in ethically made independant porn, and is strongly supportive of trans women’s presence in the industry, especially in cases where performers get the chance to define their own terms and represent themselves on screen.

“This new partnership is an opportunity to bring two smaller businesses together to become a larger force in the industry at large, while bringing awareness to the importance of inclusion and positive representation in the adult industry,” says Trouble. “I am enthusiastic about opening new avenues for trans women’s representation.”

“Before I started making porn, I looked around at what existed and I was disappointed,” said Tobi. “Mainstream transsexual porn felt like a straight male fantasy and didn’t represent the trans women that I knew, and feminist and queer porn seemed to barely represent trans women at all.  I focus my work on letting trans women represent their sexuality the way they want to see themselves represented.”

“I can’t wait to see what we can do together,” says Tobi. “Look out porn world, here we come.”

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Tobi Hill-Meyer, has directed and produced Doing It Ourselves, the first queer/feminist porn film made by and for trans women and their partners, and The Genderfellator, a plot-driven, pornographic sci-fi parody. Tobi was honored with the Feminist Porn Awards 2010 Emerging Filmmaker Award for her work on Doing It Ourselves, and The Gendercator received an Honorable Mention in 2011.
Twitter: @Tobitastic

Handbasket Productions is a radical media collective focusing on queer culture, trans experience and sex positivity. Spanning non-fiction, fiction, and fantasy genres, we use books, zines, films, music and other art to cover a variety of topics including sex work, polyamory, racism and queerspawn experience.
www.handbasketproductions.com

Courtney Trouble is an erotic film-maker, photographer, and porn performer who is largely known for their genre-defining “queer porn,” a term that was born from Trouble’s ground-breaking site NoFauxxx.Com, established in 2002. Trouble has received multiple Feminist Porn Awards and AVN Awards nominations.
http://courtneytrouble.com
Twitter: @courtneytrouble

TROUBLEfilms is a porn production company that focuses on sex-positive, diverse, and authentic representation headed by award-winning pornographer Courtney Trouble. Established in 2011, TROUBLEfilms plans to add more alternative, queer, feminist, and indie heterosexual titles by Courtney Trouble and others to its catalog throughout 2012 and beyond.
http://troublefilms.com

The first time I fucked Maxine, she was so sweet I got a toothache!

Update: Couples tickets have completely sold out and the Singles and VIP tickets expect to sell out before Saturday, so don’t wait to try and pay addmission at the event, your best best is to buy tickets through Brown Paper Tickets and get put on the list!

This event will also be livestreaming through Skin Video, my favorite webcamming site – you can pre-register and buy tokens to watch the show online right here:  SkinVideo!

The Details:

This weekend, you’ll find me on stage for the first time in six years, as a foot-fetish fem dom to the lovely, fierce, and incredibly sexy Maxine Holloway.

My return to the stage could only be for something truly awesome, and I think that Cum and Glitter is that truly awesome thing. It’s a group of San Francisco strippers, porn stars, and burlesque performers who are leaving their usual posts and starting their own exclusive club, where they can wear, do, and fuck who they please, and take home all the money instead of sharing it with the club owners!

So, that’s where you come in. If you live in SF and enjoy seeing all of us on our web cams, stripper poles, armory sets, and crash pads, COME SEE US!!!

Live sex shows have a rich history and we are bringing it all back; but this time louder, wetter, kinkier, and with more glitter! We are pleased to announce the debut of Cum & Glitter: A Live Sex Show on February 25, 2012. We are a sexy and talented group of Bay Area adult performers ready to bring you an evening of shimmies, thrusts, licks, screams and moans that you will never forget. Set in an intimate, atmospheric venue that embraces San Francisco’s past while putting temptation just out of reach. Our performers come from many facets of the adult industry and are equipped with the tools to arouse, please, and tease.

Aside from me and Maxine Holloway, other performers include Maggie Mayhem, Kitty Stryker, and Dorian Faust – see all the profiles here.  And along with live sex performances, you’ll also get a chance to meet us all, and maybe get served, or serve us, or other kinds of treats…

If you buy tickets TODAY – you can use the code 2FOR to get an incredible deal on the show – 2 TICKETS for $30 or FOUR tickets for $50. Buy tickets here at Brown Paper Tickets

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http://www.cumandglitter.com/

I STAND FOR LIVING A FULL, FABULOUS, HEALTHY LIFE REGARDLESS OF MY DRESS SIZE!

That’s right folks. I am against weight bullying and believe that the best way to achieve a safer, saner world is to stand up and be proud of who I am and how far I have come from the teenager who thought they were too fat to do anything worthwhile with their life.

I thought i was too fat to be sexy, and now i am an internationally known award-wining adult performer and artist. I range from a size 10 to size 16 and guess what? I don’t drink. I don’t smoke. I am a Yoga Addict. I eat nutritional food, and I even work out at a gym. I don’t do these things to loose weight, I do them because they make me feel amazing, physically and emotionally.

My dress size has absolutely nothing to do with my health, and am happy to be be a shining example of fat positivity. Please join me in standing up again body-bashing and other tools people use to make us feel bad about our bodies.

I must give credit to Marilyn Wann for running this I Stand project,  A response to Georgia’s misguided and harmful Strong4Life campaign against childhood obesity - as well as my friends Nomy Lamm, and Cookie Tuff for being life long fat-positive role models.

See more I Stand photos here.