From Carol With Love

“Exhibitionism for the Shy is the theory, Live Sex Show is the praxis… xox Carol Queen”

I read Exhibitionism for the Shy when I was “eighteen” and it changed my life. It informed my decision to be a phone sex operator, a burlesque dancer, and eventually a porn star.

When Carol said the above quote in front the tonight’s audience for the Live Sex Show premiere, a wave of emotions came over me. To use one million cliche’s, my heart skipped a beat. I was speechless. I felt a cyclical, generational, evolutional connection.

I owe my first TROUBLEfilms release to Carol Queen and Robert Lawrence. Thank you for trusting me with your brilliant idea of filming a porn film in front of a live audience. That you like the finish product makes me so. fucking. proud.

Buy Live Sex Show.    Buy Exhibitionism for the Shy.    Find out more about the Center for Sex and Culture.

A new video of me is up now at NoFauxxx.Com!

“Trouble’s a dirty, dirty puppy. Jiz Lee has no choice but to throw her in the bath and wash her from the inside out! Combining two of our favorite queer kins, puppy play and water impact, this scene ends in a wet, slippery climax, with Trouble panting for more from her dominant genderqueer dog-sitter!”

That’s what they are saying on No Fauxxx! It’s true… I am a dirty puppy. I love me some puppy play. Especially when it’s mixed with water bondage, rope, and hard fucking. I squirted gallons in this scene but you can’t see it, I’m covered in water!

It was really cold water, too. Jiz had no intention of letting me fake even a second of that shivering, wimpering, water torture.   God, and how good does Jiz look in this scene? Yum! I love the strap on that they let me suck on like a dog toy, slurping with enthusiasm!

Anyways. Check out No Fauxxx to watch me get fucked by Jiz Lee and play a bad, bad little puppy.

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Photo Caption: I don't know everybody in this photo but from the left, the people I do know are: me, Tristan Taormino, Jiz Lee, Ned Mayhem, Alison, Reid, Arabelle Raphael, James Darling, and Maxine Holloway.

i hosted an informal gathering at the Lexington Club last night for Tristan Taormino and her new book Take Me There (a trans and genderqueer erotic anthology) and of course, a ton of porn stars, sex geeks, writers, and muses showed up. we screened Live Sex Show and Adrianna’s Dangerous Mind on the Lexington’s big screen television, ate cupcakes, and talked about gender and porn. There were quite a few trans women there and I was excited to see them in the Lexington Club, a place that has felt pretty devoid of trans femininity in the past 6 years that I’ve been going there. There were also a lot of genderqueer (a gender identity outside of the male/female gender binary and heteronormativity) folks, and something else you don’t see at the Lexington every day – queer men making out on the dance floor. (You know who you are!!!). Throughout the course of the party, I just kept looking around at everybody there and feeling overwhelmingly grateful for all of these different kinds of ways we all live our lives. Thinking about how small my community is compared to the rest of the “GLBT” umbrella – a term I’ve long felt disconnected from, as I think we all do as queer-identified “outsiders.” Thinking about how important it is that we keep coming together in these kinds of ways, at all-gender parties. I know a lot of people find safety and comfort in “women only spaces” or “men only spaces.” I find myself the safest and most comfortable in all-gender spaces, or better yet, non-gendered spaces entirely.  And you know where I, perhaps contradictingly and for sure serendipitously, always seem to find the best non-gendered safe spaces? At porn parties.

Live Sex Show Grand Premiere
Screening and Release Party

DECEMBER 11TH 2011
DOORS AT 7.30

Buy Your Tickets Now at Brown Paper Tickets: $8, sliding scale, full benefit for Center for Sex and Culture.

Come join the stars of the film and other Bay Area porn elite to watch Courtney Trouble’s LIVE SEX SHOW for the first time ever on the big screen! A benefit for the Center for Sex and Culture.

Starring Nina Hartley, Jiz Lee, April Flores, Tina Horn, Jolene Parton, Kimberlee Cline, and Roger Wood.

In attendance, director Courtney Trouble, Jolene Parton, Carol Queen, and other stars from the film will be there to watch you watch them, sign autographs, and answer any questions you may have about this sexy film!

Doors at 7:30, Movie stars at 8pm Sharp! Door entry will be cheap sliding scale, and ALL PROCEEDS GO TO THE CENTER FOR SEX AND CULTURE.

Calling all you pervy voyeurs, this porn is for you!! From award winning porn director Courtney Trouble, LIVE SEX SHOW was shot in front of a WILD, HORNY, & WET live audience of 200 people at 2010’s San Francisco’s Masturbate-a-Thon, hosted by Carol Queen.

Starring Nina Hartley and Jiz Lee in a flirty yet FILTHY FINGER FUCKING scene, April Flores and the Matador in a dramatic COCK-SLURPING, PUSSY-POUNDING love story, Tina Horn getting KINKY AND ROUGH, Kimberlee Cline GETTING OFF HARD, Jolene Parton GETTING FUCKED, and Ms. TROUBLE herself in a climactic surprise 5-on-1 ALL STAR GANG BANG!

LIVE SEX SHOW is distributed by TROUBLEfilms

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Courtney Trouble in “Squirt” on Hot Movies For Her

Shiny black hair, ruby lips and creamy skin are all you see at first. She moves the camera to give you a better view and you see her luscious body, voluptuous and intoxicating. She squeezes her juicy breasts, tweaking the nipples. She runs her hands down her body until they reach her most precious spot; she rubs her pussy, sliding her fingers in and out, wetting the lips with her own juices. She uses a vibrator to fuck herself, thrusting her hips up and up and up again until finally she cums, squirting until it seems she’ll never be done. Afterward, she gets on all fours and begins to slurp up the product of her desire.

That’s right. You saw this correctly. I have finally, after years of being Hot Movies For Her’s biggest fan, started giving them some of my content to stream. The first and only release up this week is my adventurous, moddy, artsy, and insanly hardcore video of me fucking myself HARD with an Eleven and drinking my own ejaculate after I… squirt.

Watch “Squirt” now on Hot Movies For Her / also free for members of NoFauxxx.Com

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Max Wellander and Varina Adams on QueerPorn.TV

First time porn performers/longtime lovers Max Wellanderand Varina Adamsshow us the sweetest knife play scene ever filmed. Romantic eye contact, nipple biting, foot worship, pussy eating, hand fucking and really great shoes make this one of Queer Porn Tv’s greatest kinky couples scenes.  Don’t miss Part Two in which Max has her first ever on-screen orgasm!

I wasn’t on the set of this incredible shoot, but Tina Horn did an incredible job putting together this update for our website QueerPorn.TV – I’m really into it!! I love a little kinky knife play. Also, there need to be way, way, WAY more hot butch babes like Max in porn. What a babe! I think I need to perform with her soon.

Watch Max and Varina on QueerPorn.TV

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Shot for my best-selling DVD Billy Castro Does the Mission, this scene stars Billy Castro and Akira Raine, two of the hottest performers in queer porn history, fucking loud and hard in an actual moving van!!! A little backstory behind this scene? The moving van was parked on a very busy street, with an extension cord running from a nearby house into the van for a light source!

Here’s a low resolution sneak peek of this scene, you’ll have to join NoFauxxx in order to watch the whole 14 minute scene!!

Click here to view the embedded video.

It’s my website that got a major redesign this week, and boy did it need one.

I realised that although I’ve had this website for what, 7 years now, I have never had a place where you can see sexy photos of me from my favorite photographers, and also, my own photogrpahy portfolio had been forsaken for some time now. Both sections are alive and well now.

I will always hope that this website is theee place where my fans come to buy my films, as each sale from this site goes directly to me and my film-making fund, and each DVD you buy from this site only gets sent out straight from my very own office (sometimes, I even autograph them for you) – so please, while you enjoy the free photos I’ve put up on here to “flesh” out the site, think about buying a DVD while you’re here!

ok, that’s all from me right now. i’ve got three porn sites to run, two movies to finish, and a pork roast in the oven!!!

xoxo courtney trouble

I just finished watching my scene on HotMoviesForHer, and I’ve got to tell you – both the sex and the way the film is made blew me away. I watched myself fuck April and Kelly in three different video formats with three different sex toys (the Hitachi, an nJoy Pure Wand, and of course a big fat strap-on!), and the way everything is edited together is really fucking awesome.

So, a scene breakdown. The first thing you’ll see is me kissing and sucking on Kelly’s nipples in an homage to lesbian porn, except we’re really enjoying the Playboy-style exchange and giggle our way through it until we get to some real sex. Then you’ll see Kelly placing April and I, both dressed up as twinsie playdolls, on the couch and falling asleep in between us. The dolls come to life and seduce Kelly, making her one of us.

And then, the three of us get really switchy, kinky, and playful with a bunch of toys. April and I have a Hitachi war and end up cumming simutaneously, April fucks me with an Eleven until I squirt all over the floor, and Kelly gets her fill in a “london bridge” where I recieve one of the best strap-on blowjobs I’ve ever gotten!

Watch ARTCORE now at hotmoviesforher!

Keep watching after my scene is over, because April Flores goes on to dominate a man in a tub, fuck my heart-throbby friend Drew Deveaux, and get down girl/girl style with my new crush, Damali!

Everyone watches porn in fast-forward. This year, I made it in fast-forward. In fact, my entire life was in fast-forward. Don’t know how best to explain it than to do a Year In Review.   So, let’s get to it. Let’s play catch-up.

Exactly One Year Ago,  I spent New Years Eve talking about the future with Jiz Lee and Morty Diamond, and we all had something in common. we each wanted to branch out and treat our audiences to something special. we did. Jiz Lee became a boundary-breaking, indie-to-mainstream crossover genderqueer porn star, Morty Diamond started a book. and I… well, that’s what this post is about.

AVN Awards, 2010, Most Outrageous Red Carpet Antics!

january 2010: i released my film bordello, a storyline flick that was shot last-minute by one of my artistic sexual heros, eon mckai. april flores and billy castro blew my mind in the opening scene (link to full scene, at NoFauxxx.Com), and to this day, i wish all of my work days were like the two i spent on that set. i also attended the AVN Awards (My films No Fauxxx Roulette and Speakeasy were both nominated) with Jiz Lee (nominated for Best New Web Star) and Dylan Ryan (also nominated), where we solidified the Queer Porn Mafia and subsequently, won quite a funny award: Most Outrageous Red Carpet Moment. I also got my photo taken for Last Night’s Party (man was Bronques oh-so-crushworthy!) And as a personal aside, at the end of the month, my partner and I broke up after 2.5 years, and the sexual, sensual, emotional, and intellectual journey I was meant to go on commenced.

february: my film Billy Castro Does the Mission was released, featuring one of my muses Billy Castro in four groundbreaking scenes between him, an FTM, three femmes and a genderqueer. i tried to recover from my break-up, and may or may not have had a threesome with two queer porn stars after a nefarious dance party. i also shot Seven Minutes In Heaven 3: Fuck Yeah that month, and made out with Jiz Lee in a jerk booth at the Lusty Lady on Valentine’s Day! I still haven’t taken my jacket to dry cleaning… i also took myself on a life-altering solo trip to honolulu (link to flickr photoset!), where i learned than being single never means being alone when a nationally-noticed tsunami warning made me go over my cell phone minutes by a landslide.

march: released Seven Minutes In Heaven 3: Fuck Yeah, marking the end of a year-long streak of releasing a film at least once a month. i also performed in my first threesome sex scene – which you might never see due to it’s heavy nature – a full-on rape scene.

me and dylan ryan

april: attended the feminist porn awards in toronto and won Best Trans Film for my 2009 release Speakeasy!!! while there, i shot Roulette Toronto and performed with Judy Minx, one of my favorite people on earth. i got to be the stone-femme top i’ve always wanted to be in a porn scene, and i honestly think it might be my best performance to date… (link to flickr photoset of my entire time in canada!) that month i also shot a scene with Scout, who I met on set for Roulette Toronto and earned mutual crushes. the scene ended up on QueerPorn.Tv… but more on that later!

may: oh my god, i live alone and i love it! started taking photos at hard french – a monthly tradition to mark the summer in hot dates and a ton of photo-editing work. shot red jackhammer and chastity boner in my no fauxxx headquarters main office, that’s never happened before! also posed with Jiz Lee and Dylan Ryan in a shoot for Karma Pervs (my first time in latex!)  One of the shots ended up in Bend Over Magazine, my first magazine cover. also performed with one of my best friends, April Flores, along with Kelly Shibari (producer of Padded Kink) in a threesome that’s set to be released in Carlos Batts’ ARTCORE (click on the link to see the trailer)! my radio and text interview for the rumpus come out… things really start to take off from here…

me and jiz lee for paddedkink.com

june: my porn scene with Jiz Lee is released at Padded Kink, a site I am obsessed with (because it’s like Kink.Com except the producers hire, and prefer, chubby performers and embrace queer sexuality in a low-key, totally marketable way), and production for a new porn site to accompany No Fauxxx start to give birth with QueerPorn.TV starting with a late-night video shoot with Mickey Mod and Drew Deveaux… i also perform with Maxine Holloway for the first time in a scene for her short film The Outlaw, and get published on the cover of the San Francisco Guardian for The “Queers We Adore” feature. threw a huge Pride Sunday Party, the second annual Queerly Beloved and end up in a kiddy pool full of glitter!  …in other news, my little sister moved in with me in june… and she’s now my domestic soulmate.

me and jolene parton, good dyke porn

july: my sets go up on cocksexual, a new site dedicated to strap-on sex. i also attend the live-streaming Kink.Com Upper Floor party for Madison Young’s Thin Line Between Art & Sex and end up getting my ass majorly kicked (loved it, btw) by Jack Hammer (a BDSM porn star I’m sure you’ll notice soon!) and being the focus on a Fucking-Machine Foursome with Jiz Lee, Billy Castro, and my from-then-on porn love-of-my-life Maxine Holloway. in more personal news, i went to my dad’s three-day-long hippie wedding in the woods, got to walk him down the isle, and totally predicted that his bride was about two weeks pregnant.

august: i fall in love with my boyfriend and stop writing things in my calendar with such detail-oriented candor. he wraps me up in summer love, puppy love, real love – whatever song you want to call it. i spend my days either having the best sex i’ve ever had with him, or, editing QueerPorn.TV porn scenes with my new busniess partner, Tina Horn.

my ass, jiz lee, and papi coxxx for queerporn.tv

october: i end up on an extended tour of the world! first, i attend the Berlin Porn Film Festival and treat the audiences to not one, but four, director-in-attendance, sold out screenings of Roulette Berlin, Roulette Dirty South, Seven Minutes In Heaven 3: Fuck Yeah, and a Filmmaker In Focus event where I got to screen three scenes of my choosing (you wanna know? It was Nina Hartley and Jiz Lee, me and Judy Minx from Roulette Toronto, and the first 15 minutes of my film Bordello. I also got to be a judge on the three-person panel (with European “Women’s Porn” expert Anna Span!) for the short film competition, where I voted for Travis Matthew‘s “I Want Your Love” even though it didn’t take the final win). i also made a milestone by performing with a 3-month pregnant Madison Young – and although I was basically a stunt-cock (god i love being a stone top femme in porn), i got off so hard with her riding me!

me, photo taken by maxwell lander

november: in toronto, i screen Scout and Lascivia’s amazing amateur, switchy, queer porn scene for a Feminist Porn Awards benefit. I also end up in the hands of Aslan Leather owner Carrie Gray for an exclusive scene for QueerPorn.TV, to be released in early 2011. I bottomed out like crazy and squirted all over the place, something i hadn’t yet been able to showcase in porn performances… and now i just can’t quit. also, the most important thing that happened in november? I launched not only QueerPorn.TV, a new queer porn site where you can buy individual scenes as well as subscribe to a monthly membership – but I also launched my new favorite thing, QueerPornTube.Com – a completely-free tube site (like X-Tube, kinda, except queer) that immediately takes off, thanks to my faithful twitter pals.

december: deeply in love, i wrap up the year in reflection and solid conviction, and some lovely rewards. i’ve been nominated for an AVN Award for Best Pro-Am Release for the first Seven Minutes In Heaven. that’s like being my next door neighbor and getting nominated for an oscar. The issue of Bend Over Magazine with my photo of Dylan Ryan comes out. I get put on Velvetpark’s Top 25 Most Influencial Queer Women of 2010. my dad’s wife is pregnant with identical twin girls. the first 3 months of 2011 are booked solid with travel and parties. in a week i’ll be sucking April Flores’ toes for Coop, walking down the AVN Awards Red Carpet with my friends Mickey Mod, Tina Horn, and Shine Louise Houston.

Seven Minutes In Heaven: Coming Out!

I am so, so, so honored to have had my film Seven Minutes In Heaven: Coming Out nominated for it’s hardcore queer gonzo sexiness in the “Best Pro-Am Release” category. I see “Pro-Am” as a really wonderful niche in porn, full of indie porn stars and super hot amateurs working together to make delicious sex scenes.

Seven Minutes In Heaven: Coming Out is the first of my Seven Minutes In Heaven series, where I cast seven queer-identified individuals for their overall sexiness, stamina, and variety – and let them create their own couplings and scenes for an entire day. Nothing is scripted, nothing is set up, and nothing is planned.

Puck Goodfellow, who stars in Seven Minutes in Heaven: Coming Out, as well as Seven Minutes in Heaven 2: Tender Hearted, Speakeasy, and my porn sites No Fauxxx and QueerPornTV – happens to be the only transman starring in any AVN-nominated film this year (aside from Crash Pad Series’ incredible nomination for Best Alternative Website), and my film Seven Minutes In Heaven: Coming Out is the only “Queer Porn” film nominated… which brings me to my contemplations…

I contemplate my space – our space – in the mainstream world. Do we really need it? While they tip their hats to the indie folks because we deserve it, and appreciate it, they still haven’t quite given us the time of day. It’s very rare that indie film-makers make it to the Oscars, and it’s understandable – the films are seen by less people, they have smaller budgets, and like me – aren’t backed by a team of powerful producers, rich advertisers, or great distribution.

Queer Porn is busting forward at record speeds, spilling out new films, new websites, new performances, new projects, new everything, faster than they are able to follow. It’s not their fight or focus – and if they were to truly include us queers, they would have a whole lot of work to do breaking down gender barriers and the entire niche system of porn. It’s OK – they don’t have to.

The internet has created this wealthy, wonderful world for queer identified folks to find porn, to find community, to find art, music, friends, and support. I’m excited to go play with the big kids in Vegas in January (I actually really love my friends involved in sex toy companies, porn companies, performing, and press in the “mainstream world”) – but I am even more excited about the diverse, incredible, sexy, brilliant, and resilliant community that brought me there, that inspires me, and feeds me knowledge and love. This community rocks, and deserves it’s own awards show we’re that good!

dylan ryan, me, jiz lee, april flores, carlos batts - avn red carpet 2010

This is a “Blog Jinx” with jiz lee – meaning we agreed to write and post about the same subject simutaneously. i think she did a better job than i did.

holding hands with jiz lee and dylan ryan on the aee floor, pushing our way through the pervs to meet up with casting contacts, friends, businesses, and stars, it struck me: no longer shouting from the top of our lungs to be heard, we are now speaking slightly above average volume about the visibility of queer people in porn. and everybody is listening.

all of us nominated for the 2010 avn awards, a historical event. we were a gang of graduated misfits. no longer sneaking dvd-r’s of undistributed, unwatched works into the purse of fleshbot. no longer struggling for recognition, lost in an army of agents, disbelievers, and bobbleheads. instead we are being noticed, discussed, and celebrated.

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my trip started with up-and-coming porn and fetish star dia zerva picking me up from the airport. 2 hours and 2 vodka-sodas later, i was shooting my very first (non-trans) boy/girl scene with her and her real life man wordman, their six cats waiting in the wings for thier own kisses, scratches, and spanks.

it was an amazing experience, and i am so grateful to both of them for at once listening to my ideas of what a “hetero” scene should look like in this evolving world, and incorporating their own incredible chemistry and ideas into the scene. it ended up feeling like any of my other scenes, and i realised that shooting boy/girl doesn’t mean i’m not shooting queerly.

after the scene we quickly (well, not really) got ready for good releasing‘s aee welcome party. i was looking forward to hooking up with my hotel mates jiz and dylan, and jumping right in to my only goal for the weekend: make new friends, and squeeze the old. immediatly i ran right into april flores, whom i met at last year’s avn and immediatly fell into a deep, intulectual, creatively-driven friendship with. it was amazing to see her for the fifth time in a year and celebrate all that we had accomplished together thus far (notably nostalgia, roulette dirty south, and bordello).

while out in the hall sneaking cigarettes with alison from good for her (and manager of the feminist porn awards) i ran into my newest collaboration buddy eon mckai, another person i met at

last year’s avn that means a lot to me only one short year later. he was on an adventure with his friend bronques, who runs lastnightsparty.com, and for the first time in a very, very long time i was a little starstruck. you see, lastnightsparty is a project i’ve been following for years, a photography style that i really fucking admire – and here was the (very sexy) genius behind it taking my photo right off the bat. that was a big highlight of my weekend, along with meeting aiden starr too.

oh and here’s a really strange video i took in the elevator after the good releasing party.

AVN Vegas Weekend Unleashed – Eon McKai, Bronques, Last Nights Party, Dana DeArmond, Jiz Lee, Aiden Starr, Dylan Ryan, Courtney from Courtney Trouble on Vimeo.

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day two, we get down to business. dylan ryan, jiz lee, and i are all getting ready in our hotel room. here’s another video i took while getting ready for the aee floor.

Dylan Ryan, Jiz Lee, Courtney Trouble Porn Fashion Philosophies from Courtney Trouble on Vimeo.

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on the floor was pretty exciting. dylan ryan got lots of prospects for mainstream work, and it was interesting hearing her reasons to why or why not walk up to a certain producer. jiz lee was recognised by both fans and other porn stars, including sasha grey. belladonna pulled out of her signing line to give us all hugs. if the industry doesn’t know about or care about queer porn, the opposite is certainly true amoung the industry’s smartest, artsiest producers and performers.

the night got a little interesting. skipping all the early parties, we relaxed in our hotel room and took our time applying 5 pounds of fake lashes for our night on the town. we didn’t end up going to the big fake lashes party (hosted by eon mckai and bronques) but instead made a quick stop to satine’s “ultimate afterparty” fetish private party. hung out with wolf hudson and dia zerva, and ended up cuddled in a corner falling asleep.

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saturday was the day we were all waiting for – the red carpet seemed more exciting and lucrative to me than actually winning an award, and we really lived it up. i’m not sure if anybody’s ever whipped thier cock out on the red carpet, but jiz lee was certainly the first-ever female to do it!

in the end, nobody won any awards. champion by shine louise houston had clips showing at the beginning of the cerimony, but didn’t end up winning. good releasing, nominated for best new video production company, were all in attendance, but someone else took home the prize. sitting there the reality of the industry became apparent – stars i had never heard of hosted the show, won the awards, sat in the front row. evan stone and jessie jane clones were everywhere and seemed to be the biggest winners. aside from sasha grey, kimberly kane, and belladonna winning awards, it really wasn’t anything special or ground-breaking as far as actual winners go.

you know, some of us want to be famous in porn. some of us want to be famous, but in our own ways. many of us just want to do it for the fun, the freedom, the meaning behind each scene. one thing we can all atest to is the importance of queer visibility in the industry, and it’s been a struggle for quite some time. i feel like we have broke some serious ground, and maybe next year we will be up on that stage.

jiz lee and dylan ryan falling asleep

until next year…