Everyone watches porn in fast-forward. This year, I made it in fast-forward. In fact, my entire life was in fast-forward. Don’t know how best to explain it than to do a Year In Review.   So, let’s get to it. Let’s play catch-up.

Exactly One Year Ago,  I spent New Years Eve talking about the future with Jiz Lee and Morty Diamond, and we all had something in common. we each wanted to branch out and treat our audiences to something special. we did. Jiz Lee became a boundary-breaking, indie-to-mainstream crossover genderqueer porn star, Morty Diamond started a book. and I… well, that’s what this post is about.

AVN Awards, 2010, Most Outrageous Red Carpet Antics!

january 2010: i released my film bordello, a storyline flick that was shot last-minute by one of my artistic sexual heros, eon mckai. april flores and billy castro blew my mind in the opening scene (link to full scene, at NoFauxxx.Com), and to this day, i wish all of my work days were like the two i spent on that set. i also attended the AVN Awards (My films No Fauxxx Roulette and Speakeasy were both nominated) with Jiz Lee (nominated for Best New Web Star) and Dylan Ryan (also nominated), where we solidified the Queer Porn Mafia and subsequently, won quite a funny award: Most Outrageous Red Carpet Moment. I also got my photo taken for Last Night’s Party (man was Bronques oh-so-crushworthy!) And as a personal aside, at the end of the month, my partner and I broke up after 2.5 years, and the sexual, sensual, emotional, and intellectual journey I was meant to go on commenced.

february: my film Billy Castro Does the Mission was released, featuring one of my muses Billy Castro in four groundbreaking scenes between him, an FTM, three femmes and a genderqueer. i tried to recover from my break-up, and may or may not have had a threesome with two queer porn stars after a nefarious dance party. i also shot Seven Minutes In Heaven 3: Fuck Yeah that month, and made out with Jiz Lee in a jerk booth at the Lusty Lady on Valentine’s Day! I still haven’t taken my jacket to dry cleaning… i also took myself on a life-altering solo trip to honolulu (link to flickr photoset!), where i learned than being single never means being alone when a nationally-noticed tsunami warning made me go over my cell phone minutes by a landslide.

march: released Seven Minutes In Heaven 3: Fuck Yeah, marking the end of a year-long streak of releasing a film at least once a month. i also performed in my first threesome sex scene – which you might never see due to it’s heavy nature – a full-on rape scene.

me and dylan ryan

april: attended the feminist porn awards in toronto and won Best Trans Film for my 2009 release Speakeasy!!! while there, i shot Roulette Toronto and performed with Judy Minx, one of my favorite people on earth. i got to be the stone-femme top i’ve always wanted to be in a porn scene, and i honestly think it might be my best performance to date… (link to flickr photoset of my entire time in canada!) that month i also shot a scene with Scout, who I met on set for Roulette Toronto and earned mutual crushes. the scene ended up on QueerPorn.Tv… but more on that later!

may: oh my god, i live alone and i love it! started taking photos at hard french – a monthly tradition to mark the summer in hot dates and a ton of photo-editing work. shot red jackhammer and chastity boner in my no fauxxx headquarters main office, that’s never happened before! also posed with Jiz Lee and Dylan Ryan in a shoot for Karma Pervs (my first time in latex!)  One of the shots ended up in Bend Over Magazine, my first magazine cover. also performed with one of my best friends, April Flores, along with Kelly Shibari (producer of Padded Kink) in a threesome that’s set to be released in Carlos Batts’ ARTCORE (click on the link to see the trailer)! my radio and text interview for the rumpus come out… things really start to take off from here…

me and jiz lee for paddedkink.com

june: my porn scene with Jiz Lee is released at Padded Kink, a site I am obsessed with (because it’s like Kink.Com except the producers hire, and prefer, chubby performers and embrace queer sexuality in a low-key, totally marketable way), and production for a new porn site to accompany No Fauxxx start to give birth with QueerPorn.TV starting with a late-night video shoot with Mickey Mod and Drew Deveaux… i also perform with Maxine Holloway for the first time in a scene for her short film The Outlaw, and get published on the cover of the San Francisco Guardian for The “Queers We Adore” feature. threw a huge Pride Sunday Party, the second annual Queerly Beloved and end up in a kiddy pool full of glitter!  …in other news, my little sister moved in with me in june… and she’s now my domestic soulmate.

me and jolene parton, good dyke porn

july: my sets go up on cocksexual, a new site dedicated to strap-on sex. i also attend the live-streaming Kink.Com Upper Floor party for Madison Young’s Thin Line Between Art & Sex and end up getting my ass majorly kicked (loved it, btw) by Jack Hammer (a BDSM porn star I’m sure you’ll notice soon!) and being the focus on a Fucking-Machine Foursome with Jiz Lee, Billy Castro, and my from-then-on porn love-of-my-life Maxine Holloway. in more personal news, i went to my dad’s three-day-long hippie wedding in the woods, got to walk him down the isle, and totally predicted that his bride was about two weeks pregnant.

august: i fall in love with my boyfriend and stop writing things in my calendar with such detail-oriented candor. he wraps me up in summer love, puppy love, real love – whatever song you want to call it. i spend my days either having the best sex i’ve ever had with him, or, editing QueerPorn.TV porn scenes with my new busniess partner, Tina Horn.

my ass, jiz lee, and papi coxxx for queerporn.tv

october: i end up on an extended tour of the world! first, i attend the Berlin Porn Film Festival and treat the audiences to not one, but four, director-in-attendance, sold out screenings of Roulette Berlin, Roulette Dirty South, Seven Minutes In Heaven 3: Fuck Yeah, and a Filmmaker In Focus event where I got to screen three scenes of my choosing (you wanna know? It was Nina Hartley and Jiz Lee, me and Judy Minx from Roulette Toronto, and the first 15 minutes of my film Bordello. I also got to be a judge on the three-person panel (with European “Women’s Porn” expert Anna Span!) for the short film competition, where I voted for Travis Matthew‘s “I Want Your Love” even though it didn’t take the final win). i also made a milestone by performing with a 3-month pregnant Madison Young – and although I was basically a stunt-cock (god i love being a stone top femme in porn), i got off so hard with her riding me!

me, photo taken by maxwell lander

november: in toronto, i screen Scout and Lascivia’s amazing amateur, switchy, queer porn scene for a Feminist Porn Awards benefit. I also end up in the hands of Aslan Leather owner Carrie Gray for an exclusive scene for QueerPorn.TV, to be released in early 2011. I bottomed out like crazy and squirted all over the place, something i hadn’t yet been able to showcase in porn performances… and now i just can’t quit. also, the most important thing that happened in november? I launched not only QueerPorn.TV, a new queer porn site where you can buy individual scenes as well as subscribe to a monthly membership – but I also launched my new favorite thing, QueerPornTube.Com – a completely-free tube site (like X-Tube, kinda, except queer) that immediately takes off, thanks to my faithful twitter pals.

december: deeply in love, i wrap up the year in reflection and solid conviction, and some lovely rewards. i’ve been nominated for an AVN Award for Best Pro-Am Release for the first Seven Minutes In Heaven. that’s like being my next door neighbor and getting nominated for an oscar. The issue of Bend Over Magazine with my photo of Dylan Ryan comes out. I get put on Velvetpark’s Top 25 Most Influencial Queer Women of 2010. my dad’s wife is pregnant with identical twin girls. the first 3 months of 2011 are booked solid with travel and parties. in a week i’ll be sucking April Flores’ toes for Coop, walking down the AVN Awards Red Carpet with my friends Mickey Mod, Tina Horn, and Shine Louise Houston.

dylan ryan, me, jiz lee, april flores, carlos batts - avn red carpet 2010

This is a “Blog Jinx” with jiz lee – meaning we agreed to write and post about the same subject simutaneously. i think she did a better job than i did.

holding hands with jiz lee and dylan ryan on the aee floor, pushing our way through the pervs to meet up with casting contacts, friends, businesses, and stars, it struck me: no longer shouting from the top of our lungs to be heard, we are now speaking slightly above average volume about the visibility of queer people in porn. and everybody is listening.

all of us nominated for the 2010 avn awards, a historical event. we were a gang of graduated misfits. no longer sneaking dvd-r’s of undistributed, unwatched works into the purse of fleshbot. no longer struggling for recognition, lost in an army of agents, disbelievers, and bobbleheads. instead we are being noticed, discussed, and celebrated.

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my trip started with up-and-coming porn and fetish star dia zerva picking me up from the airport. 2 hours and 2 vodka-sodas later, i was shooting my very first (non-trans) boy/girl scene with her and her real life man wordman, their six cats waiting in the wings for thier own kisses, scratches, and spanks.

it was an amazing experience, and i am so grateful to both of them for at once listening to my ideas of what a “hetero” scene should look like in this evolving world, and incorporating their own incredible chemistry and ideas into the scene. it ended up feeling like any of my other scenes, and i realised that shooting boy/girl doesn’t mean i’m not shooting queerly.

after the scene we quickly (well, not really) got ready for good releasing‘s aee welcome party. i was looking forward to hooking up with my hotel mates jiz and dylan, and jumping right in to my only goal for the weekend: make new friends, and squeeze the old. immediatly i ran right into april flores, whom i met at last year’s avn and immediatly fell into a deep, intulectual, creatively-driven friendship with. it was amazing to see her for the fifth time in a year and celebrate all that we had accomplished together thus far (notably nostalgia, roulette dirty south, and bordello).

while out in the hall sneaking cigarettes with alison from good for her (and manager of the feminist porn awards) i ran into my newest collaboration buddy eon mckai, another person i met at

last year’s avn that means a lot to me only one short year later. he was on an adventure with his friend bronques, who runs lastnightsparty.com, and for the first time in a very, very long time i was a little starstruck. you see, lastnightsparty is a project i’ve been following for years, a photography style that i really fucking admire – and here was the (very sexy) genius behind it taking my photo right off the bat. that was a big highlight of my weekend, along with meeting aiden starr too.

oh and here’s a really strange video i took in the elevator after the good releasing party.

AVN Vegas Weekend Unleashed – Eon McKai, Bronques, Last Nights Party, Dana DeArmond, Jiz Lee, Aiden Starr, Dylan Ryan, Courtney from Courtney Trouble on Vimeo.

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day two, we get down to business. dylan ryan, jiz lee, and i are all getting ready in our hotel room. here’s another video i took while getting ready for the aee floor.

Dylan Ryan, Jiz Lee, Courtney Trouble Porn Fashion Philosophies from Courtney Trouble on Vimeo.

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on the floor was pretty exciting. dylan ryan got lots of prospects for mainstream work, and it was interesting hearing her reasons to why or why not walk up to a certain producer. jiz lee was recognised by both fans and other porn stars, including sasha grey. belladonna pulled out of her signing line to give us all hugs. if the industry doesn’t know about or care about queer porn, the opposite is certainly true amoung the industry’s smartest, artsiest producers and performers.

the night got a little interesting. skipping all the early parties, we relaxed in our hotel room and took our time applying 5 pounds of fake lashes for our night on the town. we didn’t end up going to the big fake lashes party (hosted by eon mckai and bronques) but instead made a quick stop to satine’s “ultimate afterparty” fetish private party. hung out with wolf hudson and dia zerva, and ended up cuddled in a corner falling asleep.

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saturday was the day we were all waiting for – the red carpet seemed more exciting and lucrative to me than actually winning an award, and we really lived it up. i’m not sure if anybody’s ever whipped thier cock out on the red carpet, but jiz lee was certainly the first-ever female to do it!

in the end, nobody won any awards. champion by shine louise houston had clips showing at the beginning of the cerimony, but didn’t end up winning. good releasing, nominated for best new video production company, were all in attendance, but someone else took home the prize. sitting there the reality of the industry became apparent – stars i had never heard of hosted the show, won the awards, sat in the front row. evan stone and jessie jane clones were everywhere and seemed to be the biggest winners. aside from sasha grey, kimberly kane, and belladonna winning awards, it really wasn’t anything special or ground-breaking as far as actual winners go.

you know, some of us want to be famous in porn. some of us want to be famous, but in our own ways. many of us just want to do it for the fun, the freedom, the meaning behind each scene. one thing we can all atest to is the importance of queer visibility in the industry, and it’s been a struggle for quite some time. i feel like we have broke some serious ground, and maybe next year we will be up on that stage.

jiz lee and dylan ryan falling asleep

until next year…

You see… I’m a big, big fan of underground, indie, queer-made music – and the struggles for visibility and good exposure for indie music and indie porn, especially in the queer world, are hard, and it’s a very similar world working in both. I’ve been in four bands, including a solo project and a band with my wife. I’ve been on tour five times with Nomy Lamm, Nicky Click, Jenna Riot, and my wife’s old band Forever – it’s a lot like travelling to different places to shoot Roulette.

The music in Roulette, Roulette Dirty South, and Roulette Berlin all really reflect that travelling road show kind of feeling. Sleeping on your friend’s floor, crashing at a lover’s house after the show, leaving your favorite peice of clothing somewhere on the road, sweat dripping down your tits on the road to the next city.
Here is the soundtrack playlist for the original Roulette, and bios for all the bands included on the sountrack.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Erase Errata Erase Errata are a band from San Francisco, California. Their music draws inspiration from experimentalists such as Captain Beefheart & His Magic Band, The Fall, and disco-influenced post-punk. Since forming in 1999, the band has released several albums as well as a number split singles with various other bands including Black Dice, The Need, Numbers and Sonic Youth. Erase Errata means Erase Errors (“errata” in latin is a plural neuter participle from the verb “erro”). The band consists of Bianca Sparta (drums), Ellie Erickson (bass), and Jenny Hoyston (guitar, trumpet, vocals). Sara Jaffe left the band prior to the recording of current album ‘Nightlife’.
Katastrophe katastrophe (aka rocco kayiatos) is an up-and-coming, genre-busting, emo-hop mc, whose stunning lyrical skills merge with beats that slide from slick to raw to solid to eccentric, creating a sonic otherworld that snags you in a dance-trance while teasing your head with rhymes that snap, pop and educate. with a background of slam poetry, (katastrophe was a featured youth slam performer in the acclaimed documentary poetic license), katastrophe’s mc delivery veers from clever machine gun rat-a-tat to hypnotic emotional rhythm, and on his heavily anticipated second release, fault, lies, and faultlines, explores new melody.
Scream Club Over the last few years, Cindy Wonderful and Sarah Adorable have been slowly taking the world by storm. These two have songs to touch every inch of your heart, and all the right places on your body. Having influences from literally every music genre and a love for pop music is evident in their sound, and you can’t help but have fun as you watch them on stage. With three European tours and numerous U.S. tours under their belt, Scream Club have developed a cult-like following around the world.
the Younger Lovers Brontez, the sole composer of the Younger Lovers, is better knows as Junx from the Bay Area super band, Gravy Train!!! Don’t expect electro club bangers from this project though, Brontez brings a beloved mix of Northern Soul and garage rock to these songs, with lyrics you wouldn’t expect to see out of a boy who’se usualy dancing naked with Gravy Train!!! across the country.
Cottages Cottages is one of those bands you wish you had heard while they were still playing shows. A little punk, a little surf, a little new wave and noise, Cottages doesn’t really sound like your average “queer band.” Why? Because they don’t believe in “queer” music – they just believe in making great sounds no matter who ya are.
Stephen Stienbrink & French Quarter “Pudgy” – Benjamin Leatherman, Phoenix New Times, August 2007 Hello. My name is Stephen Steinbrink, and this is a my biography typed in the first person. Thank you for reading. I was born to my mother, father, brother, and eventually my two sisters on May 1st, 1988 in Phoenix, AZ. Later, I grew up and with the help of the punk and diy community in the phoenix metro area, I learned how to write songs and put out tapes and records and cd-r’s and tour constantly and play shows everywhere with everyone. This “band” or “performance project” or “scam” used to be called French Quarter, but now it is called stephen steinbrink, which is also my name. I feel more comfortable with this. Sorry for the confusion. Anyway, listen to my records, or don’t, or whatever. Thank you eternally for the moments that have been shared, or will be shared.
the Divine Feud the Divine Feud was Courtney Trouble (owner of NoFauxxx.Com and the director of Roulette, if you didn’t catch that already) plus Marissa Magic and Kandis–three girls with a dynamic obsession with free drinks, loud speakers, and hating male sound techs.
Delta Dart Formed in 1999 in Los Angeles, CA, this long-distance trio called Olympia, WA and California home. Delta Dart was comprised of Sissy Chrome, Amber Bayer, and Erin McCarley. Using acoustic and electric guitars, bass, casio, turntables and vocals they created heartwrenching songs