I am a porn star.  I fuck on film for a living. I, Courtney Trouble, have an Amazon Wishlist.

A lot of porn stars and other kinds of “professionally hot” people have these Wishlists and receive gifts from fans. I feel strange about it. I guess it’s because I’m not your average porn star. I identify as a queer femme punk, a politically active, plus size, sex-positive nerd.

I’ve brought back my Wishlist after years of letting it gather dust because as I have been steadily increasing the amount of porn performances I do (FIVE this month alone!) I am realizing that I can crowd-source some of the outfits I wear, toys I use, et cetera. I’ve also added some photography and technology items to my wishlist because I am constantly trying to improve my craft as a photographer and film-maker.

You could argue that I could buy these things for myself - but the truth of the matter is, is that I spend virtually every dollar I make on making porn. As a producer who shoots twice a month, funds other pornographer’s projects, donates my time to pornographic art projects, and manages multiple websites – there’s not a whole lot of cash left to buy things like porn-ready high heels, lingerie, or even the more technical work-related stuff like lenses, film, and the almighty iPod (for testing my mobile videos!)

It’s also been a lot of fun seeing what my fans want me to do, with my look, my clothes, my shoots. Getting me something off my list invites me to play creatively with something new, something that I know at least one fan will appreciate!

So, I invite you to play Sugar Daddy or Sugar Mommy with me. I’ll make it fun by doing a photoshoot with whatever it is you choose of the list – no matter how crazy it sounds – and post it online for you and everybody else to see.

The photos in this shoot include things fans have bought me from my wishlist. The totally gorgeous pink dress that MH got me is probably my favorite dress of all time! The book, Girls To The Front, is from CF. I’ve been looking forward to reading this book all year! Thank you! And, the lens that the photos were taken on , A Canon 18-55, came from a sweet and anonomous fan who must really want me to take more photos… Because that’s exactly what I’ve been doing!

(photos taken are self-portraits!)